Today when I tried drowning myself, I noticed I have lots of secrets. xD
I'll never tell. They will either embarrass the hell out of me or it will hurt someone I love. Living makes me so mad. We're living to be happy, then everything stops and everything we worked for and all our happy memories just disappear. Everything turns black and we can't keep our memories. It's all pointless. It kind of sucks. . U. Heansnshbsahaha. BU I wish I could be a ghost and watch the living like I was there. I wouldn't be lonely and maybe someone will see me. < u>
OH! or if Buddha or whoever is right and we reincarnate. I would want to keep my memories and meet the people I loved in that life. I'd hope to be a better person. Maybe even a fat kid. XDDD Woopp. I hate lying. BT Japan, don't die coming back on the plane. London, don't die if I die, MYSELF, don't die. XD what suicidal people don't know, is that there is people that care. ; w;
Yipeeeeeee. XD I'm happy today because I made someone happy. I also saw my grandfather. Though I didn't talk to him, I was happy he didn't commit suicide ..... I love you all and stuff ...
Dappou Rock · Wed Jul 04, 2012 @ 09:02pm · 0 Comments |