I remember when I started on this site. I was an awkward teen. I had few friends, and I didn't like to talk with other people. I only liked Gaia because of the pretty dress up options. Eventually I learned to talk to people, and I had a lot of fun meeting new people from all over the world. I still have many of the friends I meet on Gaia, and I am ever so appreciative to have had this site around for me when I needed it.
I'm in my mid 20s now. I have much less trouble talking with new people. I am friendly and I can chat with just about anymore. But then I've tried coming back to Gaia, in hopes of either meeting more people or sharing that kind of experience, but I find myself faced with people who are much less friendly than they used to be.
I feel so surprised at the change in people that are found on Gaia. No longer do I see the friendly groups that once taught me how to get out of my shell and become a more outgoing friendly person. Instead, I see people who would have most likely shoved me right back in my shell if I hadn't already gotten out of it.
I know the kids of today are much different from back in my day (am I 60 already?) or maybe they're not so different. I mean the reason why it was so difficult for me to communicate in reality was because of those scary people that existed in real life. Only now they exist in virtual life as well.
I did a paper about cyber bullying, and I've read how people are extending their ability to be mean to others wherever they might be. I find it so sad that the world has become a much darker place where people won't talk to somebody else in hopes of helping them, but to tell them something very awful and nasty. It breaks my heart seeing the next generation being so unforgiving and cruel towards other people for no particular reason but to be mean.
Some people may think that I'm being a wuss, that if someone told me to go away or to keep my opinions to myself is not "mean". You know what though, I think if you say anything that only has the intention of hurting someone and being rude, then that is mean. You are entitled to an opinion, but it doesn't have to be delivered in a manner that is either overly defensive and lashing out basically.
Anyways, I feel disheartened by what I've seen in the Forums on Gaia tonight. Although there are still some people who are willing to talk in a kind way, the number of those who are seemingly immature and closed off to the possibility of civil conversation and can only live in drama and confrontational discussions seem to outnumber the kind ones.
To any of my friends who read this entry, I will still come on from time to time, but maybe a better way to find me is through facebook, just look up Chosan, there's only one of me. I just don't feel like this is the Gaia I knew and loved anymore.