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Salvation turns to Sin #11


"What the hell is taking so long?! It's been five days now, and nothing!" I growled and kicked a rock nearby as I sat back down under a tree by Bill's Ranch. I had been watching the gate for 5 days, waiting for these 'spartans' to arrive. The sun was getting close to setting, I realized I should soon head back to Ian's house, but I didn't want to give up just yet, so I continued to wait.
Night, not exactly the smartest decision to stay outside so close to his mansion gate. "Thats enough for today, I'll come back later, when its sunny." I got up and started down the path, but I didn't get far until something hit me in the head, hard, and knocked me out cold.
I woke hours later, my vision still a bit blurry. "Its so dark in here, where am I?" I got up from a luxurious bed and looked around a well furbished room. Then it hit me, I was inside Zhivago's mansion. At the second of this horrible revelation I let out a blood curdling scream and race to find my way out of this nightmare. My mind is swarming with so many thoughts. What happened while I was out? Was he still here? How am I going to get out? Why havent the spartans come yet? Why has no once come yet to save me?! I could feel my hollow self coming forth, fueled by my panic and desperation for escape.
Finally, I made it to the the staircase. I could see the door in the dimly lit room. Salvation was almost mine. Just before I could head down the stairs the door opens, so I hide. It's Zhivago, I just know it! Oh god get me out of here! Please dont let him do anything to me! I can't stay here, I can't!
It was time to take action, my hollow self managed to gain control of my body and would not stand to be a victim so there was only one thing left to do. Just as I heard a voice from downstairs I flashstepped and drew my katana. With my hollow strength it was easy to slice through my opponent. I could feel the blade ripping through flesh and I couldn't help but smile. I stood in the doorway as I sliced through my victim. My blood covered katana glimped in the moonlight, oh such a wonderful shade of crimson. I had never been so happy to kill someone then I was now. I had to complete this victory, so I turned to the broken body of Zhiva-
No, it cant be! The light of the moon illuminated the once dark foyer and my katana clattered to the floor as I stared at several bodies on the floor. "Dear God, what have I done?!" Tears well up in my eyes as I stared at the pool of blood that flooded into the mansion. Then suddenly it hits me, these people, they are wearing armor. Armor that matched the spartan helmet, that matched the men in the desert. They had finally come, but now...
I threw my hands up to the heavens and screamed out in agony and despair. "Why?! Why would you allow me to do something like this?! Why must everything I touch be ruined and destroyed?! Why would you allow me to murder innocent people?!" I couldn't bear the sight any longer, I ran. To my own surprise, I made it all the way to Zen Gardens with no one trying to stop me, but that didn't matter anymore. I had allowed myself to loose control of myself and commit a horrible crime. I sat there, amongst the cherry blossom trees and cried. I cried and cried and cried some more, all through the night.
"I never should have gone to them for help. I should have known, there is no help for someone like me. I cannot drag anyone else into my life, if I do they will only burn for my mistakes." I looked down at my hands, my blood stained hands. "There is no hope, no second chances for a monster like me. My one chance of salvation, turned into sin...."
And with that final thought, I managed to collapse of exhaustion. I lay there, sleeping, plagued by nightmares while the kokeshi dolls partolled the walkways, paying no mind to this blood soaked monster that took refuge in their garden.