I thought high school was better than middle school. I wasn't picked on in high school, but I was shattered instead of abused so there's no longer too much of a positive difference.
My only goal this senior year was to try to make peace and forgiveness upon the people who I have damaged, and who have damaged me most. Half wont talk to me, and the other half refuse to and they also refuse to tell me why they wont forgive me.
I am obsessed with making people forgive me, I know that is one issue. But it makes me cry not being forgiven. I want to get along with people, is that so wrong?
The issues in the past haunt me and I'm trying to make them go away. They wont until I make peace and nothing is working.
Perhaps I should drip rubies instead of diamonds and then i'll never bother people again. Because no matter how sorry I am no one seems to care.
I have nothing to look forward to in the future so maybe rubies are better for me.
This Is My Life
My Journals have been mostly when I am stressed and want to write stuff down. I have grown up and now have more real life issues that I have to deal with almost every single day. I don't know when it will end but I will write until that day comes.