Earlier today I was really complacent about the fact you hadn't come on. However, it is now apparent that I'm really freaking worried. I realise that I might be being possessive, but I think it is healthy to worry about someone (why does this now highlight that we aren't actually in a relationship but still convey our love?). Especially when they haven't said anything to anyone in a few days.
Of course, I'm just being critical of everything I think now. Some of the complacency was caused by me pushing the emotions away.
Actually, I'm sure you are perfectly okay. Things happen and I just need to rationalise with myself that the world isn't Gaia Online. People have lives and, as much as this hurts, they can't always live on the Internet talking to me.
I just wish you would come online for at least five minutes to explain what is happening so I don't have to worry, and I know that you're okay. This might sound a little bit selfish, but if you did tell me what is happening, then I wouldn't have to have to refresh the Friends Online list every ten minutes. stressed
