"One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: That word is love." - Sophocles
I am unsure whether I have previously written with regard to this subject, but nevertheless I shall revisit this subject.
A happy smile, lots of noise and a group of friends are always with her. At times she feels that without this she would have never understood.
Her heart used to be so hateful. Her loneliness made her so bitter she would rather dismiss the whole existence of this feeling. Even friends looked fake seeing them from this point. What made her this way? Even she wondered. The world looked dark to her in general, so her hatred towards love was her least of her concerns.
But change has occurred: high school.
Before going to high school I made a decision that I will leave past behind. Although I did not think that consciously, I could see that everything I was doing converged to that. And only then have I consciously decided I will change the way I understand love. Also,this was related to an almost obsessive change in the books I read.
Probably the most I changed after I read "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho, but the feelings I got after that book will be expanded in a future entry regarding calm, now I shall only mention it has opened my soul, making me receive the message of future books in a highly different manner. Even so, the genre of this book was completely unrelated with the books afterwards. With titles such as "The Apocalypse 2012", it is rather hard for someone to understand how this could have changed my way of perceiving love. But the truth is they have, since I started seeing love in a more... biblical way. I learned from my lectures that love could be so varied, that it is literally everywhere. That one could honestly say "I love you" so often that it almost loses its signification. Or, to me, it gains. I learned that I could say "I love you" to my pomello trees, to my hyacinths , to my dog, to my parents, to my friends, to the sun shining, to God. And every time I said those words, more or less seriously, I would remember that I am not alone. That I should not feel lonely any more. And my heart would fill with love, peace and,most of all, happiness. I had found out why love is of utmost importance to some: it gives one the feeling of not being alone, thus opening the path to happiness.
And a last piece of knowledge I learned is that what keeps us away from this is the common definition of love, that of attraction between a male and a female. But there are so many kinds of love we should not be afraid to be misinterpreted when saying these two harmless words: "I love" and let them echo and fill our soul with light.
P.S. I posted it as only today have I realized it is February, the ultimate month of romance. Also, I hope that sometime in the next days I will write the next entry, regarding calm, or the other one in my mind, about faith.
P.P.S. To those knowing how much I hate using quotes: I still hate them, but I considered this quote to fit in so good I could not help putting it in. [At least be at ease I didn't put one of the 4 quotes I know (and repeat no matter the context). You wouldn't have wanted the one from "A Christmas Carol",right?]
Shadow of the Luna