where does the strength come from. These past days I have felt more and less stable than I have in a long time. It was rock bottom for a while. Ignoring that I have no one to talk to about roleplay stuff makes it easier. I don't feel as sad as long as I'm not reminded of that. The way not to be reminded though is to not get excited. To not care.
I shouldn't need to resort to that.
Dev can choke on her excitement for anime con for all I care right now. Her and her little con buddies. Her stupid merchant tables. Am I jealous? ******** yea. That's the only reason I can see for resenting her right now. In this moment, I really really don't like you.
At least I'm not all emo ******** anymore like earlier, after I drank the vodka. ********, I had been all like "wed to the darkness" and s**t in my mind. Stupid. How ******** stupid.
Well, I lost weight. But is my mother satisfied, nope. Nope. Nope Nope. Not in the least.
But you know what, I had a great time with my Daddy. I just have different way about things than my mother. We care about some things the same and others completely differently. My Daddy and I watched movies together today <3 That was splendid. He fell asleep after we watched Rise of The Planet of The Apes <3 It was so cute to see him with his guard down and all. Lol. I guess I just usually see him as this rock... when in real life my mother is more the glue and rock that holds our family together ^^
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Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
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