Truck's packed, headed to Ft. Myers for the weekend. I want to start the new year properly, with an adventure.
Happy New Year, and happy birthday to you. I've been so wildly inconsistent lately...I know. But I think I understand. In my imagination, your hair is impossibly long now, eyes wild, and you are more lovely than ever. And finally, that doesn't hurt.
Do you think some people are bound to always have to make peace with the path they've chosen? Maybe it's just not meant to be easy.
I still have rotten luck with women, but I'm trying to keep doing what I do best...not expect much, and take moments as they come. I was with a Russian for awhile. I do not trust Russians. I'm ashamed to admit that I dated a 21 year-old gogo dancer for a bit. I really don't frequent that type of establishment...it was just a bad time. There was a great girl, a french Canadian, who I might have stuck with and gotten out of this rut...but she was only here for an internship and I met her with literally one week before she went back to Quebec. She asked the meaning of the '22' tattooed near my heart. I gave her the honest answer...I don't know. She taught me to say 'I don't understand french'.
But how come all the good ones live thousands of miles away? I'm trying to be smarter about this as I go along, but fate evidently hates me. I met a girl who turned out to be an NFL cheerleader on new year's eve. Problem is, she's with the Jets. So I didn't pursue (smart). She had someone give me her number after she left the bar (fate hates me).
I took her to a country bar on her last night here...she'd never been somewhere like that, but she had a blast. Me and Jim Beam watched her figure out some line dances. I hope you still dance...it is mesmerizing to us. She had a harder time with the bull, but thats okay, she's a city girl.
Maybe I will learn to not get attached so unwisely. But will that really be me? I dunno.
I like to think of you smiling and happy. Be that.
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