Inside of my mind, inside of my heart- Light and Dark both swirl about, forever mixing. Forever fighting for dominance.
The battle will forever rage on, and is ever effected by the outside world.
During the day- or when im among friends or company, i dont have time to dwell withing the depths of my mind- my spirit- or my heart. I am happy-go-lucky and carefree, and the light shines through me like a beacon. These are times that i appreciate life, and live it to the fullest.
However- my mind makes a 180 when i am alone, or with like company.
I see all that is dark, all that is evil, and all that most people overlook. It's not a place i prefer to go per-se, but it provides me with an extreme depth to life that most people never see. Sometimes my the condition of my psyche terrifies me, but i know all to well that if i go to seek help with my problems- i will be institutionalised. I will be able to cope eventually, but its gonna be an extremely long and arduous road- one that i am unsure that i can finish on my own- but its going to be nearly impossible to find someone to walk with me on my path of twilight.
I've been with women from all walks of life- I've dated a girl who was the incarnation of an angel, and i've dated a girl who has the spirit of a vampire housed inside of her. Both fit each personality perfectly, but i have not just yet found that someone that shares my madness, one who walks the same path as i do, one that cannot walk her path on her own.
I guess that'll be as deep into my madness as i dwell for tonight
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