I guess most things have settled into dust again.
I can honestly say, it has been awhile since I have been like this. Just happy. I am smiling about everything, laughing about everything and just living. Well, not living, but I am having a good time.
Where have these days gone? I can honestly say, right now, for once, I could die and I would have no regrets and I would be content with it.
Golly, everything seems to have fallen into a single path again, something I can follow. Finally, I have order.
Sadly though, I am still bitter, I guess you could say, about this whole Tri ordeal.
He seems to act like nothing happened. I don't want to say he is fake, but he isn't genuine. :/ Seriously, it bothers me so bad how someone can be like that. I am happy that we are both happy, but I want him to suffer still. OR I, at least, want a genuine apology. Haha, kinda like the Daniel thing, he was really sorry and we are cool now. But Tri, he isn't sorry, he wouldn't take back anything he did, he feels no remorse.
Thinking about it, damn. I wish he went through the same things, mentally and physically as I did during our relationship. :/ Oh well, I deleted him off of facebook since his posts just instantly make me mad by being like, you can't be suicidal and then be happy another moment. Like what the ******** for reals. :/ Damn, I need to swim or run or do something.
When my bottled feelings want to explode
I write them out to calm down...so these are thoughts running through my head