Okay. I don't even ******** care right now who sees this. The only two people that it's ******** about are either 1)not friends with me on Gaia, or 2)don't even get on much, never the less check my damn journal pages. Sooo... yeah, I'm pretty pissed at this point.
Starting off, boyfriend's ex keeps ******** texting him about stupid s**t that she should leave up to her girlfriends to handle. I know that's what I ******** do when I have a ******** guy problem. I don't go bitchin about it to someone I used to sleep with, unless I still want to get in their pants or some s**t like that. And she probably does still like him. Why else would she always go to HIM when she has a problem? God! It just ******** pisses me off! Not to mention MY GUY, who still talks to her like he still has a thing for her!
I mean, really. He never talks to me like that; bein all goofy or whatnot. No, only to HER. And it makes me feel like s**t, like he still likes her and cares about her more and stuff. And still, she gave him back his jacket that he gave to her and he's commenting on how it smells like her and that it smells good?! WTF?! Who says that kind of s**t to an ex?! Maybe an ex that still like?! God damnit, that means what? HE'S BEEN LYING TO ME THIS WHOLE ******** TIME.
You're not over her; she's not over you. I don't care what the ******** you say and I don't ******** trust you or believe you. The face that you just lied to me TODAY, saying you would be ready in a sec, a "sec" turning into 35 minutes, yet you tell her it was because you were ******** JACKING OFF?! Why didn't you ******** tell me that?! I'd understand you better, you ******** piece of s**t!
God... it just feels like everything is getting ******** worse, like you don't even care about me. You still love HER more, no matter what you say. Maybe I'll just go away, and give you all the precious time you want with her. I bet if she were here, you'd be spending as much ******** time as you can with her. I don't care what either of ya'll say; you both still ******** love each other, and it's pissin me off. To that fact that I'm considering not being with you anymore.
You know... I'm gonna put this thing as private instead, and today, I was reading about a whole bunch of sappy love crap that we wrote. It made me feel good about stuff. And now that's all been ruined. Good bye. Good bye for possibly forever! That way you two can have your lovey-dovey crap without having to worry about me being in the middle-again.
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