It's strange when you look back at the person you used to be...when life wasn't as complicated and yet, back then, you would have sworn it was the end of the world. And it is at times like these when I really look back...and look back on the things that really defined me as a person and made me who I am today.
It might seem silly...but role-playing really changed my life forever. My life has not always been sunshine and rainbows, and while I do not expect a pity party...I never had the best childhood. My mother was always at work and bringing home new men, my father was abusive and treated me like I was old gum stuck to the bottom of his shoe. My little sister reveled in her ability to get anything she wanted and was always the shining star...and I would do anything just to get a glance.
Because I felt so miserable and lone, role-playing offered me a comfort that normal gaming could not. It allowed me to wear the skin of another...venture into far and distant lands where i was hero, where I was perfect...and mostly where I was loved.
Through role-playing I met one of the most amazing people ever: Gabriela.
She was the best role-playing partner I ever had, and no matter what strange plot I came up with, she was always there to balance things out as my partner. She showed me what true love should look like, and even today, I go through love and loss handling things exactly as I would in my stories...because sure enough, it brings the best results. Role-playing was a way for me to vent emotions without becoming violent. It was a way to express myself without having to force someone to sit down and listen...it was a way to communicate through an amazing never-ending story with limitless possibilities.
Other things that have influenced me are the bad times that i have been through...the multitudes of lost relationships and bad friendships, the anger related issues with my family, and etc. Because, without the fact that I was abused, without the fact that I had to work for the right to do something, without all of those things, I would be no better than half the people I have met...the ones who only get a job because their parents got it for them, the ones who text all day at work because they do not need the money, the ones who b***h and complain because they can't go to a party because they have a weekend shift...
I would be no better than them.
So you see...It's the smallest and strangest of things that enlighten us and shape us into better people. It's the smallest and strangest things which make us unique and one-of-a-kind. Sure...i have been hurt, I have been betrayed, and time-and-time again I have had my heart shattered into millions of pieces. But we never give up because of those things...no. We accept that they happened with good reason, and we move on. Because we are human, its in our DNA to do so...to learn from those mistakes, so that we can avoid them in the future.
Okay...my rant is done.
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