So I'm writing this because I've waited a long while for my boyfriend to actually post an entry about me, or for me. It's not asking much.... but this is not the point.
I love my boyfriend very much. He completes me. He is my best friend. heart And we're both fire signs!!!!
But enough joking.
I care deeply about him. I dream about him all the time. He is the last thing on my mind at night and the first in the morning. He is the reason I wake up every morning...
...Life is dull and lonely without him. I can't imagine or remember life before him. My heart beats for him....
And yet there are times when I wonder if he actually feels the same for me. When I wonder if he'll still love me tomorrow. I wonder if there is someone better for him that'll come along and take my hope and joy, my only love away. And I KNOW that there are a ton of other girls out thre who fit his ideal for perfect....and I wonder why he's with me...
...but then his smile and kiss take that worry away. And his insanity helps too.
We have so much in common...and we're both weird... and crazy...and like a lot of the same things...but even though I just said my worry is swept away...I fear that there is one person out there who is exactly what he needs, wants, and who can best me at anything I try. I fear that person soooo much...I don't want that person to ever come along.
And I feel so bad that I take up so much of his time...that he rarely sees his friends...but he's my best friend...I could tell him anything...
crying Sometimes I wish he was nicer to me...or maybe it's my fault for being needy.... crying He's very nice...except sometimes he doesn't realize that he isn't being nice. I get sad alot...but sometimes I don't even mention it, I don't want him to get mad.
AHHHHHHHH!!! Before we divert ourselves on a mopey tangent let's get back to some happy thoughts....
Honestly, he is everything I've ever wanted in a love. Even though he doesn't believe me a lot of the time. Especially when I say "you look hot!" "I love this" "AWWW!!! You're so cute!" He really is. He's everything I've ever wanted. And all I've ever needed! I just hope that we'll be dating for even longer! And I can't wait to se him when he gets older too!!!! I KNOW he's gonna get even cuter! FYI...I'm two years older sweatdrop ...Altough he does look older than me...I look 14 and I'm almost 18 sweatdrop ...he just turned 16....But no matter! I know he's the perfect guy!
Tiffatron9000 · Wed Mar 29, 2006 @ 02:59am · 1 Comments |