my new way of getting anger out:
If you’re reading this, I hopefully won’t be there. Yes. It’s your entire fault, but before you go high fiving Ryan and farhad or whoever. I suggest reading on. You’re not the great person you think you are and I wonder how you’ll get people to laugh when you can’t make fun of others. This isn’t a note for the purpose of getting my revenge; it is a note for the purpose of telling you what you did to me. First the obvious: you embarrassed me, you’ve hurt me. You’ve belittled me, you made sure no one would ever like me, you made me cry, and you’ve made me leave or think of leaving. you’ve also done so much more to me that you can’t see. For example: you’ve made me believe everything you said, you’ve made me so protective of everyone close to me up to a point where I think everyone’s going to hurt them or me, you’ve made me want to commit suicide at one point, you’ve bullied my friends and me, you’ve encouraged everyone to do the same, you’ve got me to a point when I want to hurt myself because it makes me focus on something else other than the pain of you bullying me and so much more.
I want you to know that with everything you’ve done to me, I do admit I’ve done bad things to you but in comparison which is worst? I’ve: punched you and I sent that email out in grade 7. Yeah that’s really it, and to think of that one time where i actually told you how I felt about all this and you just made it into another way to bully me. I don’t want to hold on to all of this as I grow up. That’s why I left or want to leave because I can’t continue my life in that kind of environment.
I hope that the next time someone asks you why you didn’t punch that guy, you answer, “because I can only bully people or make them feel bad I can’t inflicted harm because I am weak”. If you don’t believe that, then ask yourself, why do I bully or make fun of people when they bug me and not just be strong enough to walk away or ask them to stop? I do know the true answer. I didn’t write that because I want to know the answer. I wrote it because you need to learn the true answer for yourself, and sorry but for this test you can’t copy off someone like usual.
Even though you’ve hurt me in so many ways. I want you to succeed in life because the world can’t handle an adult acting like an overgrown child. Sure you can get away with it now but later when your beating your wife or making a racist “joke” or siting In your house all alone. What will happen then? Without a pushover like me to keep her / his mouth shut. That’s the only regret I have, and I hope you have so many more than I do.
· Fri Feb 04, 2011 @ 10:22pm · 0 Comments