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I am NOT going back. I am strong. I do not need you on my side. I am hurting...but you would not understand. You NEVER understood me and I never understood the real you. You hurt me and used me and lied about so many things. Why did I love you so much? All you brought was PAIN and all this ******** self-doubt! I cannot be your friend. You DARE ask me such a thing. You DARE to ******** text me after almost a month. You DARE to think I would come running back.

I am trying to be happy with myself. I am trying to make other people happy. I am trying to move on and forget about you. You are only concerned about me when you and your ******** mate have a fight. I AM THE ******** REBOUND CHICK WHENEVER THINGS DON'T GO RIGHT WITH YOU AND YOUR MATE. I LOVED YOU YOU STUPID a*****e. I WANTED TO HAVE A FUTURE WITH YOU. But not anymore. I am not a priority for you any longer and you are no longer a priority for me. I do not love you, Sarah. I have not for a long time to be honest. I was just scared of losing everything because you WERE my everything. You kept me going. But now I have come so far, I am gone. I do not hate you either...I could never hate you...But being apart is better for us. You are my past and "what happened in the past is over". You told me that once when I had a nightmare and I texted you in the middle of the night...Take your own advice for once.

Have a nice life, Sarah. I plan on doing the same.