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This Homecoming stuff is kind of depressing... Everything these past few months changed so drastically for everyone. It just...feel strange... I need some stability, something to be sure in, but lately, all I have gotten is vague responses and half-hearted results. :/

Why should I go to this dance? What would be the point? I have no date and I do not plan on getting a date or dancing with anyone. So why should I go? To hang out? I can do that any other day. The only difference is that at the dance, everyone is in couples it seems. :/ Ugh. Bleh. Love has been pissing me of for multiple reasons. It's like Life took a sandpaper d**k and crammed it down my heart's throat. It's just bullshit.

Yeah, I guess I'm just bitter. I'm bitter about 2 people especially. They're the main reasons I don't know if I want to go or not. I'm dying a little inside each day because of these people. How long will it take before I just give in and say "******** this" to Life?

No one would care if I didn't go anyways...I'm just trying to prove something to myself by going. Maybe I'm just too proud to admit defeat. :/ I dunno...I wish someone could understand, could talk to me. Urghhh. I guess it's just you and me, Journal. I doubt anyone reads you anyway. d: