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Hey. I wanted to let you all know that I'm not ignoring anyone purposely. I'm really sorry for not being on, I promise it's not that I'm avoiding anyone.

I've been spending the past few weeks sleeping 18-20+ hours per day, trying to avoid ending up in the ER. The soonest I can see anyone is Sept 21. I made the appointment a few weeks ago. It's not even with the doc, it's with the physician's assistant.
The thought is that I have a duodenal ulcer, most likely caused by the Crohn's. But without imaging, we don't know for sure.
I've been doped up and sleeping, trying to avoid feeling it for the most part, so I don't end up in the ER before the appointment because I can't last. ._.
I'd like NOT to be in the hospital for my birthday. ._. Though I honestly don't know if I can avoid it.

Um. Yeah. ._. So I'm not ignoring any of you, I just really don't have the capability to be all that social right now. And I'm sorry.
Once I see the physician's assistant and get a treatment plan going, I'll start feeling more talkative. ._.
And then I won't be such a shitty friend, I promise. ._.



Like, to put it in perspective, I haven't been feeling well enough to let James come over, even just to watch an episode of Stargate, most days. ._.
And I was about a week and a half late on my shot because I was not awake enough or sober enough to give it to myself safely.