People want to know why I'm not like my old pathetic self.... People ask my what happened and want to help. Truth is, there is no helping me. I don't need their pathetic sympathy and their caring.
I gave up on happiness and love. Two pathetic emotions that are for the weak. I've locked those emotions up in a room high up in a castle on top of a mountain. Only the strongest and the most REAL of people can reach them. Sure, they'll come across imitations of those emotions and they might receive a fake smile every now and then but it'll go to their head and they will fail this quest.
Anyways, people have proven time and time again that my love isn't worth fighting for. That it's worthless and they don't really care. People are so pathetic. So stupid and pathetic.
I'm searching for real people. Not those stupid "Look at how cute and cuddly I am" people. Someone with depth, someone with passion and someone who is real. I myself... Once was not real. But this change pulled me out of that weak pathetic heart broken girl I use to be. I'm bullet proof now. I don't have to worry about the idiotic emotions the rest of this scum on this earth has. Positive emotions are weakness. Something people can manipulate and rip someone apart with.
Simple as that.
Now please don't comment saying "You're wrong Sam" and crap like that. Because when it's happened with EVERY relationship I've ever been in and when someone can CLEARLY think beyond those stupid feelings, you're words are worthless and wasted on me. I'll be like this until I actually meet someone worth giving this up for.... So it'll never happen.
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I've been gone for 7 years.
What the heck am I doing?!
30|Minnesota|Geek|Mom