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Its been almost two years in like, 3 days, since I last posted a journal, its insane. A lot has changed. I'm in a good relationship that actually will be 6 months the 30th. I've started getting a little more self confidence with showing myself, as in, I have had some weight gain, I have stretch marks, and I hate them, a lot, but I'm finally finding the self confidence I need to be a confident woman, and just live life. I'm also working on trying to eat better, and go on a proper healthy diet, but since I've been in Texas, the last few weeks, its been hard, but I've been doing what I can.

I think one of the best parts to the relationship I'm in, is that I'm loved for me, the way I am. He doesn't care that I have the stretch marks, he doesn't care if I gain weight, he loves me as I am. He supports me in working towards loosing a bit of weight, but he wants me to be safe about it, and I plan to be.

Martin, is amazing. He's not my whole world, because I'm working on making myself better as a person, but he's a strong piece of it, and I don't mind at all. I love him, and like, I know I've mentioned ex's, and loving them, but this time is different, way different. I think about him and I smile, and just think of the little things that make me love him, like his adorable smile when he laughs, how cute he is when he pouts. Sure he's quiet and I'm the opposite sometimes, but I think that could be what makes it work. We're opposites of each other.

Anyways, I'm gonna stop now before it gets mushy, lol. Bye.