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You just stepped into a big pile of emotion here, man
I'v.... never felt so selfish and blind in my entire life....


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...I feel like.......

I never.... want to touch him again.... unless I ask first...

...I never want to act on impulse.. 'cause I might hurt him...


Joel is probably right, I'm over re-acting and he's thinking nothing of it right now, but...

The fact that he has to take a break from me... because I'm pushing him too far...... kills me...

Like an amoeba that I swallowed, that gradually grew... then one day just ripped me up from the inside out...

It hurts like hell... because I care way too much about him... and I hate myself for doing that to him... even just a little pain for him... lights millions of strings of guilt inside me.. that all lead to explosives of fear... and sadness..

Elusive Muffin
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