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HAHA sweatdrop i cant believe it i had another dream of this certain girl again. Why oh why must she sweetly torture me xp

I've conciously stopped thinking of her in any manner that would be relationship wise but my subconcious still isnt convinced. In the last month i've been dreaming about her at least twice a week, and the theme is always the same. Something always goes wrong that rips us apart from each other at or near the end. The plots as usual are totally illogical and wierd ( as most of my dreams are, what makes them exciting hehe) like for example the one i had 5 days ago, we finally meet up after a long expedition of seeking her and trying to get to her, to find out that at the end she was infected by a strange substance that transformed her into a monster ( similar to the swampthing) in which she ended up trapping me in an elevator and eating me >< . Not a very happy ending i can tell you. Another one was she snuck into my bed, because she had no where to go (no funny business happened of course) because she had a fight with her family. So i tucked her in, tried to get her to get some sleep and made her comfortable, when suddenly her her parents come in and tell me what had happened. So i go and confront this guy and i end up falling down a building to try and save her from him ( woke up before i hit the ground).

I mean sheesh, when will my head just stop crying She's in a happy relationship and i'm totally happy for her, happy that she's happy of course. I mean part of me wishes that it was me, but oh well, thats the way the cookie crumbles, i've never been nor do i want to ever be a reason for a happy relationship to break up. Still, she makes me smile when i think of her, a little pang of pain too but, thats for me to hide.

Lets just hope that i finally get a dream with a happy ending sweatdrop