Well as much as I love dorm life, I also hate it. And the college courses were only getting worse. So I've taken the semester off. I should be returning next fall.

I just can't be the person I want to be... so I needed a break. So I took one. I'll b e getting a job an license and car, hopefully. That IS one of the points of this leave of absence. I've just lost all my focus and concentration. Unable to do my work. Unable to do... much of anything. Ahh well, hopefully things will go the way I want and I'll be ready to resume in the fall.

...I will find what it is I'm looking for...

Grasp the Truth from Gundam Wing
[A Cheng Wufei Image Song]

What do they believe in
What are they searching for, as people live
Nobody sees it and stands there
without moving at the night...

A person who sneers at himself,
"I don't even have a dream"
is a loser with nowhere to go

Something that burns furiously in my mind...
I'll go --- if it is the truth

I would only fight, even though I was hurt, to the end...
I would only grasp it if I believe in it and if I'm searching for it...
If it doesn't collapse even if I ask it questions,
Then that is justice...

I am surely feeling it
Live through today
I am not making a fool of it
Because I cannot speak about tomorrow

If I could put something like "courage" or "love"
into the words,
I can make an excuse for a resignation...

Something that shines is in my heart...
Raise a sword in my mind... over the head...

Hesitation and fear make the darkness
Risky battle, even one second, is fatal to my life...
I will not die
As long as the soldier's blood continues to flow in me...

I would only fight, even though I was hurt, to the end...
I would only grasp it if I believe in it and if I'm searching for it...
If it doesn't collapse even if I ask it questions,
Then that is justice...