Note to world: I'm feeling much better these days than I have felt during the time I wrote my previous (friends only) entry. I can write this without feeling the inclination to go back and write it more nuanced.
I really did feel like s**t for a while, but I got out of it. Not a stronger man, let alone reborn, but I feel I got myself back on track again. My internship+masterthesis to Pondicherry, India is coming along nicely. I suddenly found out I had some free time again, the first block's workload was so much for me mostly because I couldn't keep my mind attached to the rest of my body for longer than a minute.
I told someone else about my uh inner struggles and she said she hadn't noticed. I'm kind of proud of being able to keep what's inside inside. I'm also glad I didn't offend anyone to the point that they never want to talk to me again.
Heh, I was just thinking about how you would easily take something small and turn it into controversy in the past, but nowadays I think you try and avoid that where possible. I think you're a more controlled person now.
But I've always admired you for your honesty which sets you apart from the other people I know (even irl).
Good luck on your thesis! I can't imagine how many citations you have.
aw thanks That's a big compliment
It'll probably be in the 40s, considering I'll have to describe the history of Pondicherry and discuss the current field of colonial heritage studies. Oh and some information from the French library in India about the architecture of the buildings, that will be quite a few citations as well.
The actual research won't have many sources cited though. I mean, it's very much about doing your own research and not just discussing other people's work. Maybe I can refer to other research in roughly the same area to show where I got my ideas from.