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Roots of Antique relapse
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Inner thoughts
Just some thoughts i suppose


I miss you like crazy.. i Don't know what to do, Everytime i think, i think of you.
You're constantly in my heart-
never leaving it at all.
Always there before my eyes,yet all i do is stall.
I finally get enough courage to just talk with you,
yet you always reply with one-worded answers, leaving my thoughts to ponder.
I wonder if you love me still, until the very end..
Every choice i seem to make is always around the river bend.
I love you, i miss you..please give me one more time..
Take it all out on me, for this last breath of mine

Caught between love & hate, not knowing my fate..
Wrong or right, it'll turn into a fight.
Hurt or unharmed it will be at our faults..
Dwelling on my thoughts will lead me down an endless well.
Afraid to ask-
Uncertain to know...
Maybe i should consider to sink over so far below..

He thought he was oh so clever,
He wanted to make that clear,
He always said his choice was better,
He told me what i wanted to hear.

I gave him my trust,
Yet he always lied,
He wanted to use me for lust,
I saw it in his eyes.

He said he would be mine forever more,
His eyes were filled with so much love and hate,
The hate shattered my heart to the core,
I thought:"Is this really my fate?"

In his eyes i'am dead,
He has hurt me,
He should kill me dead and end the dread,
Why can't he leave me be.

I feel so overwhelmed with so many emotions,
Why am i this way?
Is it wrong or right-
It's neither.
My head hurts..
My heart aches.
Are my feelings real-or are they made up of fear?
I'm not fake nor real-
I'm simply me.
I've fallen for him-
So much hurt, So much pain.
Why do i dwell on the past with a hurt heart?
Does he love me..does he trust me?
I Feel i'm not yet forgiven.
Yet i'll always love him.
I'm an open book-
No...A picture book.
Easy to understand no words ever needed.

Do i love him-
Why is it so hard to let go?
I'm caught between my self-
I keep on running..But for how long can i keep it up?
Why does he make me cry so much?
Why do i shed tears of such sadness and hurt-
I want the blame, But have i suffered enough?
I'm tired of it,
I want to sleep and never wake-
I want solitude and isolation.
Once again im burning my bridges and raising my walls.
I want to lock my heart away-
Hatred will be my best friend yet again...

I am the cure, I am the disease
I am Fearful of huge crowds-
Of normal things-
Afraid to be loved,
The thing i want most.
Maybe it's because i don't think that i deserve it
Because i am not that perfect
Little girl i was supposed to be-
Because i have emotional breakdowns-
And take pills
And keep moving.
I am Tired..

You are my sunshine.. remember that song? that was only a fraction of it..

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
But when I awoke, dear, I was mistaken
So I hung my head and I cried.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

I'll always love you and make you happy,
If you will only say the same.
But if you leave me and love another,
You'll regret it all some day:

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

You told me once, dear, you really loved me
And no one else could come between.
But not you've left me and love another;
You have shattered all of my dreams:

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

In all my dreams, dear, you seem to leave me
When I awake my poor heart pains.
So when you come back and make me happy
I'll forgive you dear, I'll take all the blame.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away


Mentir Sourire
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