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For Chloe always telling me, I don't listen, she has no ******** faith/trust in me.

I'm seriously pissed off at her right now.

Something happened, something big. I wanted to know what. WHY? I just want to know, so I know. I hate knowing there's secrets. It shouldn't have been brought up, if she didn't want me to know. I was going to pretend it never happened like I did with the last thing that happened.

But no. Because I ******** up ONCE, she thinks I'll do the same. I ******** TOLD her, that I'd drop it. I would've, too. but since she won't tell me, now I want to ******** know. I want to know what the hell happened.

I think something happened at one of the clubs this weekend or something, I'm not too sure. She won't ******** tell me, so now I'm going to ******** worry about it, and think something really bad happened, because I don't know what happened specifically.

WHEN I KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON, I'M HAPPY. I WOULD'VE DROPPED IT. She doesn't understand that I learn from my mistakes. How little faith she has in me is pissing me the ******** off. I'm seriously raging right now, that she thinks I'm some whining little c**t that can't let things go. I would've. I would've forgotten about it. But no. She can't ******** tell me, because she thinks I'll keep talking about it more and more, WHEN I WOULDN'T HAVE SAID ANYTHING AFTER SHE TOLD ME! I WOULDN'T HAVE TALKED ABOUT IT, I WOULDN'T HAVE ASKED FOR DETAILS, I WOULD'VE PRETENDED I NEVER HEARD HER SAY IT. IT'D JUST MAKE ME FEEL BETTER AS A PERSON, TO KNOW WHAT MY GIRLFRIEND HAS GONE THROUGH.

******** me.

I'd like to know. Hell, what if she got raped? What if some ******** guy raped her, and she has STD's now? So now, since she won't tell me, I think it's even ******** worse.. and i'm terrified of her now. I don't know if I can trust her anymore, since she's hiding things from me.