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I'm so afraid.
I'm not pretty enough.
I'm not nice enough.
I'm not good enough.
I'm too young.
I'm too fat.
I'm too clingy.
I'm selfish.
I think the world revolves around me.
And I'm so afraid.
I'm terrified that one day you'll stop calling me gorgeous.
I'm terrified that one day you'll stop calling me your angel.
I'm terrified that one day you'll stop calling me perfect.
One day you'll stop telling me I'm too skinny.
One day my clinginess will be incredibly annoying.
One day you'll stop thinking I'm so cute and you''ll be over it.
And it's not that I don't trust you.
God, I trust you more than anyone on the planet.
But life's not a movie.
Sometimes we're not meant to get our Happily Ever Afters.
No matter how much I want it.
Most of all,
I'm afraid to come home one day,
And find you stumbling over your words as you try to break up with me.
Even more afraid for you to tell me without any stumbling.
I'm afraid of having my heart broken, of never speaking with you again,
Because I'm sure a break up will ruin our friendship.
And it makes me cry.
I wish I was more sure of myself.
I wish I could be perfect for you.
I wish so much.
Because I love you so much.
But I'm so afraid.