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It's a little frustrating. I just keep finding myself unenthusiastic about everything. I really don't feel there's much to look forward to. I feel tired of people. tired of my old hobbies, all that other weird stuff. I'm just in some kind of stupid cycle that I can't break easily. I'm sure that with some time it'll get better. Or rather, I hope. But honestly? I just don't feel like bothering anymore, don't really feel like trying.

And that's hardly the right attitude for somebody going into college. I just feel stuck where I am. And any comfort I get tends to be really temporary before I slide back into place. So what exactly should I be doing right now? I think that's the question a lot of people don't know with their lives. Because everything's so dull and uninteresting it seems. Maybe I'm just bored with my life. Who knows? But it's a better feeling than being overwhelmed by work or academic stuff. I'm kind of scared. I haven't really grown up. And now more than ever, I need to.