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So I had a lot of spare time to reflect on things today. It was slow, I had done all of my work that I was willing to do, and my computer had a 3-hour boot-time scan for viruses that I had schedule the night before. Let me say it right now...

When you think lowly of yourself, reflection sucks. Huge d**k.

So I first thought back to the way I've been acting these past few months. I've been a sarcastic a*****e, mostly with a bitter tendency towards most women, save a few. I've also been whining a lot.

My summer had a lot to do with it. Constant trips to the doctors for Hepatitis C, my computer, tv, xbox360, and router all got killed in the same night. Visiting new york I ******** realized how much I miss living there, and how much Florida has changed me. Then I come back and things seem to be going okay. Then my mom starts drinking again. She has Hepatitis C too, only she's been binge drinking for the past 17 years. To top it all off, I have a class with my ex girlfriend. The only reason the last part is bad is because of what I talk about in a paragraph or two.

Within two days of starting school, I get to start hearing words that were put in my mouth. I did my best to squash them, but apparently I had been saying my ex gave me Hepatitis. I never did drink her blood or anything crazy like that, so let the record show I DID NOT SAY IT. I would of had no reason to. And I know where I got it from, and had it before I even met her.

Another thing I got to reflect on is what I'm embarrassed, or should I say, ashamed off. Well, to tell you, it's <edited>. Yeah, it's kind of stupid, but I can't help it. And it hurts me, a lot. Most of my friends don't think it's actually this way, and that I'm trying to get attention for it.

Yesterday we had Anime Club. Frankly, I thought it was a disaster, which is bad because I'm the Vice President, and am at LEAST half-responsible for it being that way. This didn't help today. 1337 club, which I am president of, was a complete and total wreck. The teacher totally ******** me over and didn't give me a chance to make it so we could do what we were supposed to.

On the bright-side, NOBODY reads this s**t, so I don't have to make it private. Yes, I want my friends to read it. No, I don't care if EVERYBODY reads it. There's a reason I have it public.

-Minonovo