So I have something to run by you guys, a certain dilemma that’s been fuzzying people up for ages. Okay, so here’s the question of the centuries: what’s better, to love or to be loved?
For me, I have no idea what’s better. See, if you love, you’ll be happy loving the person, but what if that person doesn’t love you back. But if you are being loved, then you’ll always have someone around to appreciate you for no matter who you are. See, life would be so much easier if they were the same person. Unfortunately, my life is not easy and I have to live with making a choice that could change the way I think for the rest of my days.
Ok, let me explain the situation. Hopefully, you guys know about Teddy Bear and Mr. Contagious. If you don’t, then all you need to know is that Teddy Bear is the guy that I’ve liked for ages and I’ve known the guy since we were both pretty much in nappies. Mr. Contagious on the other hand is the guy that I only just got to know this year, and he’s been a very open kid. He also seems to have something wrong with his eye every time I walk past because he always looks like he’s winking at me. But that’s impossible because I’m not the prettiest girl in the world. Sorry to be skeptical about this but I’m seriously being realistic.
So now that I’ve explained about Teddy Bear and Contagious, hopefully the two sides will be clear. If not, I’ll explain in more detail.
On the side of “to love” is Teddy Bear. So, I’ve liked this guy for eons. No questions there. Unfortunately though, there’s a huge problem. Me and this kid have had our ups and downs but he’s seriously the hardest thing to read. I don’t know if the guy likes me as much as I do. See, every time I see him, he’s always got a smile on his face and I reckon he’s the most gorgeous thing in the world. Only thing is we hardly ever talk anymore. We hardly even talk at school. It’s a super complicated relationship.
On the other side, on the side of “to be loved” is Contagious. Now, I hardly even know what this kid is thinking either, but I talk to him more than I talk to Teddy Bear, which is kind of bad I know. Problem is, with all the winking, I don’t know what to think.
Seriously guys, I’m so confused but if I had to choose, I think I would choose “to love.” Why? Most of my friends asked that question. Why would you waste your time on a guy who doesn’t even make it clear to you whether he liked you to or not? Why would you even bother with the effort? My answer to that was I don’t know. Okay, so this is probably the cheesiest paragraph that I’m ever going to put in these journals but to me personally, I would rather love, even if the guy doesn’t love me back and it hurts. Don’t get me wrong, I think it would be awesome to be appreciated and loved, but you can’t help what your heart feels. People always tell me you to follow your heart because it’s always right. Maybe I should, even if I’ll get hurt. But that’s the way life goes, and maybe we have to take a chance.
You know, there’s a song about that called In The Middle- Jimmy Eats World. It’s a brilliant song and gets me on my feet whenever I’m down. It says in that song “it just takes some time, little girl, your in the middle of the ride, everything everything will be just fine.” That’s what I guess I should live by from now on.
Anyway guys, I have to be going soon. I’d love it if you guys could give your opinion on what you think about the question and what you guys would choose.
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