Haven't been doing very well : (
I haven't been able to keep up with my class work like I've wanted to.. My grades in my classes have been slipping. I guess it's my anxiety or depression or ADHD or whatever. I feel so melancholy.. I don't feel like doing anything, even though I know I should. Some of it is anxiety (stuff is piling up so quickly) but I know that that's not all of it, not even most of it.
I had my first appointment last friday with my new therapist, a "Cognitive Behavior Modification" therapist. I haven't seen a behavioral modification therapist before because I was afraid they would be too similar to other therapists I had seen in years past. And she was. Therapy doesn't help me because I already know everything they tell me. I've already tried every suggestion they give, numerous times. but I think I will see her a few more times just so I can say I tried...
Yesterday (July 9th) I had my pain management doc, Dr. P, perform another Radiofrequency Neurotomy on my lower back. This is the second time I've had it done. The first one was sometime last year, he did it on both sides of my L2 vertebrae nerves. This time I had him do it on L1 and L2, to test a hunch of mine. My back is pretty sore, and I don't have enough pain meds to take extra to feel better.. I get a refill in a week, but I don't have enough to get there..
I have plenty of Ultram but it gives me extreme muscle spasms if I take too many, so strong that they hurt... 
Let's hope this new anticonvulsant medication I have will help with that.. 
