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ok so my birthday is April 7th *ill be 17* and thats in 12 days......i wanna be happy but idk i should be or if i even can.....about 2years ago my favorite uncle was shot *he was only 27* i loved him soo fukkin much and its so hard going on when hes not here. laughing and smiling just feels so WRONG..........i wanna have a party for my birthday......but the trial for the guys that killed my uncle is April 9th 2 days after my birthday....my birthday party isnt supposed to be until the 25th but it still feels ******** up to me. i knw he wouldnt want me to cancle my party but i.........i just dnt kne what to do.*^^i miss you sooooo much.^^*