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	It's Been A While
	It's Been A While

I haven't had a decent entry in a while. You could probably say I've never had a decent entry, hah hah. And seeing as I doubt anyone actually cares to look at my journal, it probably doesn't matter anyway.
My life recently has been crazy. I have discovered how one little misunderstanding can (or nearly can) ruin everything. It is weird how miscommunication is the root of so many problems in life.
My birthday is this Saturday, to top it all off. I didn't really understand that my mom wanted to come and see me that day. She had mentioned it, but I thought it was just a suggestion. My boyfriend (mlangenh) told me he had something planned for Saturday, so I called her up and asked if Dad and her wanted to stop by on Sunday since I was probably going to be busy Saturday. She sounded fine with it on the phone, but my sister (Tantalise) informed me that she is disappointed that my boyfriend has come before her. And now I feel guilty about my freaking birthday. I don't see what the big deal is. I didn't even know she was upset; she has a tendency of not telling me these things. Whatever. I don't think it's right for me to feel guilty about that.
I have been stressing out about my future. Every day, I wonder where I am headed. I wonder if I am making the right decisions. As I approach the end of college, this thought has become more and more prominent. I am scared that none of the grad schools I'm applying to will accept me, and I will end up in a dead-end job that I hate for the rest of my life. My biggest fear is that I will end up like all the other women in my town: married, pregnant and/or taking care of their kids, and working a crap job. There is nothing wrong with being married or having babies and that sort of thing, but it is not for me. Especially not now.
And yet, I am still on Gaia!
Why?
Mostly because of the friends I have met on here. I enjoy talking to them, and they make me happy. smile
I remember the original reason I started up on Gaia was because I wanted to post my art and see what people thought about it. The addiction started off so innocent! Hah hah!

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Megzican · Thu Feb 05, 2009 @ 04:30am · 0 Comments


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