Well here I am again....talking about whatever the ******** comes to mind and sadly it is about sadness and pain. Sadness for my unability to aquire a real working relationship with my father, I mean I don't hate the guy I'm just not one to take orders that are pointless to do for he yells at me even if I do them perfectly word for word...-sigh- it pains me to hear him talk about how my life is a failure and how my clothing is not like his and that makes me a bad person, just because I like chains and baggy dark clothes...which then brings me to pain...it pains me to love someone so much and i am unable to tell her that...I mean yes I've told her and shown her lots of times but truly I am unable to say the one thing I've bin dieing to say for a while now...and all because I've seen someone do the same thing and it ended badly....so because of that mistake I can't....it pains me to ask questions that I would already know the answer to but the future is unclear and wild...making it utterly impossable to ask it.... -sigh-
wow kia...at least u don't have both of ur biological parents lieing to u... it to pains me to love someone who apperently thinks i'm not fit to be in this world of everlasting pain and sarrow...whatever i do rite they say is wrong...and i used to cry for attention in my own way like cutting myself which is why i where sweaters alot to hide the scars that have already healed but r still there...u have had an awful time... which is y i like to be ur friend...becuz it's just a feeling that u know what i felt...i've had such rough times even now i wish they would come undone...well u problemly want ur space now..so i'll shut up.. seeya in school or what ever...bye...*blows u a kiss and a peace sign*
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AshieTheSoft · Community Member · Sat Sep 20, 2008 @ 06:47pm