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The kid is stupid. He uses no logic in his decisions and tries to play things off like he just didn’t understand. I know better than to believe that, so I hit him, as a reminder as to where he is going to end up if he doesn’t take responsibility for his actions. Sister tells me that he’s just being a little boy and won’t learn from being hit, but she’s wrong. If he can be scared into making proper choices then it works just find. It’s upsetting to see the scars on his body, most are not my own but the few that are hurt me. Sister says it’s cute how I worry about him, she doesn’t understand why I act the I do when I’m around him She doesn’t know the things I do o him to make myself feel better. She isn’t the only one upset by the lost of our father; she just shows it more because of his actions around her. I’ve grown accustomed to seeing him around our house and missed him greatly while he was gone. For a month I went without seeing his face or tasting him. I craved his blood and his alone…
She noticed it. How I wouldn’t eat or sleep, the weight I lost, increased aggressiveness, she saw it all. I said to her things I shouldn’t have said, I lowered the spirit of my own flesh and blood and beat myself up for it. Now she grows fond of that Leaf…
That worthless waste of a creature’s obsession with my sister is futile, yet he remains persistant and tries to woo her. I do not like him as a potential suitor for her. He’s too childish and she needs someone who is more dominant. He offers to pay for anything she wants, he gives large sums of money to the needy, anything to do with money he will use to impress her. If it weren’t for her I’d test him on his skills, wealth cannot save one from combat against “the human dragon”. Thankfully sister shows no interest in him, she only plays along so she can see him happy. The same reason she invites that god forsaken little girl around.
Her name, whatever it is, is worse than a parasite, she clings and never lets go as she spreads her toxins through my skin. She is 12 years younger than me, but based on location, date of birth, and family involvement, she is to be the girl I am meant to wed. I protested against this, but as a wish from Father I do not desire to disrespect him so. At least she is unaware of the fact we are to be one, but nonetheless she acts it, clinging to my side and squeezing my hands as I walk, speaking for how much she loves me. If she weren’t so…obnoxious I might not mind being with her but she is so young and does not know otherwise. I wouldn't be able to tell the kid, he’s has told me time and time again that he loves me. I have yet to respond verbally, although through his sexual requests I express my care. Love is too strong a word for someone like him. I can only love one person, my sister, and no one else.
 II Kojiro II · Fri Jun 27, 2008 @ 07:43am · 0 Comments |
