I have 95K yet that can't fulfill the void now left in my scarred soul...I have learned of news most terribly, news more deeply and personally wounding to me than all others. I will not divulge this information under any circumstances as it was passed along to me under the most intense of all confessions... Suffice to say, I am shattered. Some essential core of my spirit, mind, and/or body has been utterly and completely removed or destroyed. I neither know nor care how that has been done; all that matters is that I have lost a part of myself, an irreplaceable part. What's left for me to do knowing this? I can't fix myself and there is no one who is capable of attempting to help me...That much lies beyond the skill of any mere mortal now. Suicide had always been something of a final resort for me...Now I contemplate death's embrace almost as I covet the return to my previously ignorant bliss. If there is any possible way of restoring my soul, then I beseech any who have knowledge of such a method to give it to me. If there is not any way to heal, as I suspect there is not...Then I believe I will not survive as the same Lord Zerix that I once was. In his place, there shall emerge a new Zerix...One not nearly as deluded or weak. Nor entirely human...
· Sat May 31, 2008 @ 01:02am · 0 Comments