News
End of School
This year's school year has really gone by fast. I've made tons of new friends, and, well, to put it simply, it has been great! It's been so long since i have actually found happiness and tranquility during school. Even with all the drama, (GF drama, norm school drama, rumors, ect.) I have loved this school year. I guess you could say i rediscovered my love for education. Insane as it sounds, on my last quarter grades, I got all A's and one B. It feels like an amazing accomplishment, to go from Cs and Bs to As and Bs. I hope next school year will be as good as this years.
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Anime Club
It really has been a blast, running the Anime club. It's been years since i have had this much fun, and felt this busy at the same time. What i must admit that i will miss about the Anime club is its effect on me. throughout the year, i have had two breakdowns in the Clubroom. First time was when i just couldn't stand the pressure of being leader, and trying to obtain my goals for the Club. The second time was during a fight between a member and myself (we never threw punches- I am a pacifist after all) about his own stress. Either way, when leading this club, it gave me more incentive to put others in front of myself. It gave me the courage to push myself for better grades (After all, as the chairman, I am somewhat considered the representative), But most importantly, it made me reassess my dreams and goals for the future.
Goals and desires
As I have often said to my friends, I want to be a writer/Video Game designer. I have always loved writing, for fun and for work. However, during the Anime Club, i realized that there will always be those who desire to be a designer, a creator. Thus, i have thought it out, and come to the conclusion that i should help those out. I will help the designers who wish their dreams to become reality. Of course, i will still write. I still plan to officially publish In Game and Pixelated after i finish writing them(By the way, Pixelated is halfway through, and In Game only has 4 chapters so far). Not only that, but i plan to write more stories. It's just i know i will need a day job to support myself. If you think about it, when you first start off as a writer, you really dont make much money. With that in mind, i must find a way to support myself during the beginning of my career.
Another of my goals, as insane as it sounds, is to find someone who can accept me. I will not desire a person who will understand me- everyone can understand each other to a certain extent. I want someone who can accept me for who i am- For both the Otaku, the Nerd, the Martial Artist- anything. The thing is, i have realized that love isn't exactly as it seems. Love is a feeling between two, a deep connection, a thriving acceptance and affection for each other. Without accepting, one cannot hope to change. Thus, those who date for looks, i must say this- you are playing the lottery. I highly doubt this one will be achieved, but i must say it is a worthy challenge.
Finally, i want to move to japan. Go ahead, laugh. It's a large dream, but one that isn't as hard as it seems. You see, I love everything about japan. The language, the history, the culture, the beliefs and customs, I love it all. Not just the Anime, the women, or the Business applications of the gaming industry. Those are just bonuses. I love japan for what it is, what it has been, and what it will become. That is why I desire to move there- to embrace my love for the country.
Cuinstudios Update
During this weekend, a few (as in two) things has occurred with Cuinstudios.
Ichi- I have published >Login_04 of In Game. I hope you will enjoy its twists of events, as I had when writing it.
Ni- I have started to compile data for a new story. I have yet to title it, nor do i plan on revealing much about it yet. I will say what kind of Genre it will be; Sci-Fi. I have loved Science fiction stories ever since i was a kid. Star wars (Obvious love), Starcraft (sure, its a game, but the story is incredible), and iRobot (The book was better). Insane as it sounds, i will not attempt to touch the issue of robots and their evolution. That is not my goal. My goal is to talk about what is to come of humans, and the results of exploration of space.
What does lie ahead of us? Only uncertainty is clear. Space, being so vast, and ever expanding, may actually be more complicated, yet simpler, than we imagined. Will we Humans be the overlords, or will we be controlled? Will we be equal, persecuted, or worshiped? What is to come of humans, an already vastly diverse race? What is to come of our acceptance of similar species, different species, and creatures of vast intelligence, yet in our minds, horrid appearance?
Thats basically what i want to touch with this story. It may be hard to do, but it is something i wish to accomplish.
In the end, those are the things i wanted to talk about in this journal entry. Ja Ne~
