Prom: Depressing parade of heterosexuality
Okay so yesterday was prom (yay). When I was in middle school, I basically told myself that I wouldn't go to prom because I don't want to deal with the whole me not having a date and me being the akward gay guy at the prom. But....I went in my senior year because I figured that I'd regret it later in life.
Now, if any of you guys don't know, I was with a guy like...a month ago, Wyatt. Really sweet, really nice. He asked me to his prom and I was totally excited to go (it was a gay prom), but it didn't work out. So like....I was pretty sad after that happened.
So anyways, yesterday we all went off to prom in this really awesome Limo provided by my friendzie, Denise. She had the cutest date. LOL. Turns out he's bi. When I found that out, I felt a little less depressed about being the only guy who likes guys at prom. LOL. But yeah. annyyyyyyyyyways. We went to the Aquarium. To be honest, it was just okay. It wasn't as great as I expected it to be, but I dunno, maybe I'm just saying that because I didn't have a date. Ugh.
Being gay and not having a date is like the most depressing damn thing ever when you're a prom. A prom is nearly nothing more (to me) than a parade of heterosexuality. I don't want to sound all counter-culture and s**t but....yeah. I mean...ugh. When they announced the prom king and queen, I got slightly depressed. It was so romantic-like (previously they'd been freaking on the dance floor). They announced the king and queen and they did a slow dance. It was sooooooo romantic. I wanted to slow dance with a guy. sad Like so bad. That just reaaaaaaally depressed me like nothing else in the world. sad Blah, I kinda expected to feel that way after a while at the prom, but it like...really hit me. So I was kinda down the entire night, but I TRIED to look happy. LOL. My friend Bonnie kept telling me that i made her want to die and I didn't want to be a party pooper. LOL
Dances in general just tend to depress the living hell out of me. They really do. sad All these couples dancing with eachother and stuff. I mean, seeing that makes me think "I'll never get that". Like, I'll never get to slow dance at prom with a boy, I'll never get to have that silly highschool romance that I wanted so badly. Meh. It's just depressing sometimes. It really is. It's not like expect people to just stop doing it-and heterosexuals will always be in existance (lol), but at the same time watching it just depresses me.
I can't exactally say why I'm so like...desperate for a boyfriend, but like I don't know I'm kinda lonely right now. More than I've ever been. It's probably now that i dont' necessarily need to hid myself anymore. I just want someone to cuddle with and be all grossly in love and crap. Blah. Depression.
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