I can't, I can't sleep, I can't.
the feeling of worthlessness,
abonded by love.
Ever tear I shed bring forth new pain,
a new kind of suffering.
One I never thought I'd bear.
I was wrong.


For some reason it seems im forced to chose between my boyfriend and my best friend. My best friend happens to be a guy and i luv him as a friend nothing more. If i was asked to chose I'd chose my boyfriend in a heart beat. I don't think he truely understands how i feel right now. I went to sleep last night feeling like he doesn't love me, I still have that feeling. I don't think it's going away anytime soon. I understand why he's mad but then again I don't. I don't even know where to go from here....