So many words can not express how I am feeling right now.
So much pain so much agony that lingers on my breath.
So many fears of what should have been and what could have.

Pain is my admiration,
I have lost the one I love,
So much fear so many wonders,
Will I ever see him again?

Life seems to be filled with so many false hoods.
I loved, I felt, I knew, he was mine.
Now nothing, he is as though dead to me.
I can live, I can.

The tests of all tests, so cruel and true.

Lost in thought, lost in hope.
Never to be found.
…I know where its at.
I know..

I feel cheated, destroyed, abanded.
None of that matters now.

Pray, fast, work, that’s what I must do.