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alright its been awhile so I have been trying this church thing because of a new girlfriend and it seems to make since until tonight I just watched a sermon on the net about toxic relationships and it makes me feel horrible cause I feel as if I am bringing her down but I dont want to give up the physical part of the relationship because I have had sex I know what its like its a great feeling where as I am 18 she is 19 we have been dating for a month and a week and I was the person to give her her first kiss, wierd I know. but it sucks cause from what I heard tonight I am manipulative I can be jealous not creepy jealous but I will stab a guy if he gets to close and I try to get her to open up physically knowing she isnt very experienced in that area or even in relationships, so any advice would be helpful please?