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I don't know what the deal is with you, i don't know if your alive or not..
I'd rather you be alive.
Moments ago i was missing you, reading the things you had sent me.
So i could read them on bad days, and then they'd turn into good days.

Moments after reading such things, i came upon something.
You lead me on, then that happiness turned to rage.
That you would do such a thing, play with me like i'm some sort of cheap toy with no heart.

When i actually felt something towards you, for your information it takes alot out of me to express my true feelings.
So what i told you that day was the truth, and even after. It felt like it backfired on me.
It's not like nothing would have happened between us anyways...

Again my mood changed, it was back to missing you.
As of right now i don't know what i should feel.
If i should be mad, and ready to kick the s**t out of you. Or i should be upset and regret that i am unable to talk to you.

I don't know what to say as of now...