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Well here it is another night in Iraq..........The canon fire is even louder than ever each day tha goes by. I miss my kids back home, and other people in more ways than they could ever comprehend. lately i have been bitter and cold to alot of people but i have a good reason for that. If i push people away and out of my life i wouldnt hasve to worry about emotional hurt. I guess thats why i hit the gym everyday. If i could replace it the emotional with physical then there is my solution. Like i was saying though. I dont want to ever move on in life. I think my only companion in life would be a dog. I just hope that when my kids are older they dont try to play match maker. i would be greatly dissapointed in them for that. Y'know typing this and reading it over really puts me in a slump. Oh well at least i can cry about it here in typing rather than expressing it. I just hope that whatever is in store for me later on down the horrible game called life is a bright tunnel. anyways i must get going now. good night world and remember.........I will forever be dead in the hearts of insurgents................and family.