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then you've basically got what used to be my relationship.

So this week has been quite eventful *takes a deep breath*

So two days ago someone I work with comes up to me while I'm at panera eating and chilling out on gaia. And says "Hey I heard your boyfriend wants to go back home I'm really sorry you guys are breaking up, But don't tell him I said anything cause I told him I wouldn't mention it to you. But I just have to let you know cause it sounded like he was leaving soon."

I drop my sandwich trying not to cry and I said " 'Scuse me?"

"Yeah he said that its too expensive here and he misses home, I just thought you should know. Since I know that you two are having problems. I thought its kinda messed up that he would just leave like that. Anyways I gotta get going, later"

I later one confronted my now ex as to why he would find it necessary to tell someone who is a complete stranger then him that and not me and on top of that someone I work with. He basically said that he didn't feel like he could tell me because of my reaction. All I heard was I'm too much of a coward to fight my own battles so I had someone else tell you. I then kicked him out of my apartment. After doing the latter I felt like I was overreacting and decided to tell him he could stay here till he got ready to go home.

I have to tell you one thing I hate is a liar but one thing I hate even more is a bad liar.

I felt betrayed in the worst way because this isn't the first time he's been callous with my feelings before. He dumped about a year ago to date someone who was at the time 16. I was pissed at him for a very long time and it took me a while to forgive him but there's really no coming back from this. I just don't see us having any kind of friendship when I can't trust that someone hides there thoughts from me.

I mean I know everyone has a little lie or maybe even a big one. But if its going to cost you a relationship or a friendship I implore you to tell the person before they find out through a worse means....nothing is worse then being betrayed by someone you think is a friend