i can't seem to get a conversation going. i know i'm boring. i don't even enjoy talking to myself. when the conversation is going. it goes on for awhile and then it stops and i don't know what to say anymore. the conversation is over and there's nothing to talk about. i go talking with my friends for years and i become blank and i don't talk to them as much anymore. it's always quiet. my world always seem too quiet like i can't seem to break the silence. and when i do break the silence, it just echoes bact at me...
if i was more active, out going then maybe i can be a better friend to everyone.
dammit i wonder if i'm going back to my sad self...
i don't know...but smiling--it feels weird..i just like keeping a still face because that's just how i am. and when everyone sees me, i'm just like that.
when i don't smile, i'm feeling fine.
when i walk slow(tooooo slow), lost in thought.
when i'm in my head, everything goes bad and everything floods and i'm completely gone....
 xsaki_chanx · Fri Nov 30, 2007 @ 05:55pm · 0 Comments |
