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PPL im sorry ifi was ever mean to u and if ur readin this plz 4give me.....ive been failin as a Christian recently and i just wanna share my testamony with u. . . . . so ok i was born in a Christian family. . we were church goers basically. . i dreaded sunday cuz i thought church was borin. .boy was i wrong i love church now. . so as i was sayin lol i was raised up with a religious family then in the 90's we started straying away my dad got kinda abusive sometimes and we got in fights and then i fell in love with a girl. . .for 4 years i loved her. . we talked and she said " i consider u my bf" well about a month later she played me for her cousins x-bf. . so i cried got into drugs and i started to cut and go "emo" but i was hurtin so bad well. . i wanted to end the pain so i went to kill myself. . .and my friend who's like my sister talked me out of with bcuz she texed me and said are u ok? and i was like no. . but wat was scary is she texed me rite wen i was about to kill myself so i took that as a sign from God and i went to a Cristain camp over the summer that changed me. .did u no every 6 seconds sumbody dies and goes to hell? well i learned that and i saw tongues and everything. .this camp reunited me with a friend who's now my best friend (my boy derrick elzey) he was always there for me through tough times. . so if ur feelin u hav no future guess again. . i learned i do..i got resaved and now i go to a christain schol and i also hav the most beautiful gf now . . her names evelyn she means the world to me. . .i love her so u c i was always miserable and alone. . and over time God changed that.. i still act happy and goof off but inside im still sad but u no wat time and God and Jesus will save me!!! God Bless and i pray for all non-believers who are reading this that they might PM me and i can help u. . .anyway i love u all stay pure and if u hav any questions PM me and ill b sure glad to help ^^ and dont do drugs and NEVER commit suicide. . hells real and its SSSSOOOOO not worth it. . so God Bless and hope the Lord will work miracles in ur life like he has mine. . .^^