Things are so odd here right now. I haven't been feeling like myself lately, no matter how hard I try to. I can't figure out what's wrong. Nothing has changed around me, at least nothing that I have noticed. There has been the lack of money in my family, and I do notice that I find myself resenting the people I love and talk to all the time that have such nice things.. and don't have to go hungry for days on end and even have a job. No one will hire me and I don't know why. That's normal. isn't it? I'm a hard worker, I get things done when they should be, I'm nice, I did well in school.. Why the hell won't anyone hire me? Why can't I be lucky and have the money for my family to eat when there is only three of us? Why can't I have a boyfriend that lives within walking, even driving distance? Why? I keep asking myself these things and I get no answer other than 'you don't deserve it'. Could these be the reasons why I have changed and I haven't realized this problem caused it? Who knows.. but I will wish upon a twinkling star, the brightest of them all, and hope things will get better...Please.. Please get better...
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