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Well I ended up in the hospital about a mounth ago and am still recovering, this is my second week at a different school than the one I whent to last year, I've just had the worst break down I've ever had, I haven't trimed my bangs in forever and it looks like I have emo hair (sorta), I still can't see Tori (but now I can talk to him once a week), and I'm fighing off depresion that gripped me hard.
Well that just about sums up what's happened to me since my last entery.
I didn't go to blue lake cause I was in the Hospital. I'm living with my dad so I'm not in the same town as all my friends. I've been in the hard cold grip of deppersion for almost a mounth or even longer, wich I finally brok under and cried alot, screamed, threw things, cried some more, clung to Neko, Jojo, and my sister, and after it all I gathered myself back up and have felt no pain since. I miss Tori, I'm angery at no one inperticular about moving in with my dad, I'm happy that Tori loves me, enogh that it keeps me strong and fighting for my dreams, and I'm determanded to make it to the best art college I can so I can see my dreams through.
After all this I deceided that I'm going to do anything it takes to see my dreams come true. What are those dreams? Well to be a Manga-ka and climb out of finacel whole my family is stuk in and to met that dream with Tori by my side. I want to spend my life with him, I want to have the life we've talked of, the one we both dream of.
As long as I don't waver and I don't forget my dreams nothing can hurt me now. I'll fight, I'll take what ever comes at me and I'll do what ever I have to to see this through.
I love Tori, I love my art, I hate what I almost became, I'm fighting for love and for my dreams. Nothing can defeat me now.
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