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Well, even if you like this or not, I'm being honest, and nothing can stop my freedom of speech.


Okay, I'm going to be blunt and honest.
Whether I'm kind about it or not.
And just to say, I've stopped caring about your feelings,
Making sure whatever I say won't make you mad,
Because these are MY feelings,
And I don't care who likes them.
(Show this to whoever I want, I couldn't care less.)

I have issues with a lot of stuff going on.
1) Drugs and alcohol
2) Gary
3) Money
4) Dan
5) Anger Issues
6) Self Pity


I'm going to start off with drugs and alcohol...
I HATE IT, IT'S WHAT I DESPISE.
You over-do it! Honestly, it's stupid.
You're paying to kill yourself. (You might as well pay a hit man to come and kill you.)
Drugs are disgusting, stain on your clothes, stains on your breath, stains on your mind.
I can't have a decent conversation with you on it because then I feel like locking myself
up and never coming out.
I don't want to live like that.
Alcohol, you promised me you won't drink unless you're with people.
You broke that promise, and might I add, with other people is worse.
YOU HAVE MORE ANNOYING PSYCHOS WITH YOU IF YOU DRINK WITH OTHER PEOPLE.
Another thing, for you it's ILLEGAL.
And drugs are just plain illegal, and face it, you're not 10.. YOU KNOW IT.
You know it's illegal.
I say, you should QUIT DRUGS all together!
I also say, don't drink around me.
I hate it, and honestly, I hate having a conversation with you on either.
IT'S PATHETIC.
I hope you know, you're not going to keep your job if you keep this up.
They WILL fire you.
And they won't be like you and care about your feelings about it. (YOU&GARY.)
And you say your boss does drugs?
DOES THAT EVEN MAKE A DIFFERENCE, I think not.

Now GARY...GARY,GARY,GARY.
ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP.
Why are you dating a pot addict?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
He uses you.
He doesn't help at all.
You ALWAYS defend him.
It's annoying, and pointless.
I've lived with him, I know what he's like, and you can't defend him.
Because no matter what you say about him, I won't believe you.
You were saying he helped you with the rough times.
Anyone can say a couple of words to make you feel better, hug you, and kiss you on the cheek.
And it doesn't have to be him.
He's a ********, A LOST CAUSE, and A STUPID MF.
He's a waste of a life, no offence, even if I don't care if it's offensive.
He doesn't actually care about you.
He's just using you for as long as possible.
And blaming his ways on bi-polar.
'Oh, I can't get a job because I'm bi-polar.'
You know as well as I do, that that line is pure BULLSHIT.
It's not even funny.

Oh, the lovely subject MONEY.
I hate it, it's so embarrassing, saying I can't do anything/live
Because we can't afford it.
I hate it when food is not the main priority
When DRUGS AND ALCOHOL are all you seem to care about.
When you ask ME for money, to get alcohol.
And if I tell you no, you'll find SOME way to get it.
I hate it, if I have a head-ache and I can't even get an asperin.
Also, school clothes.. We have an expensive uniform and it's ridiculous when I have to wear the same one for three years.
Not that they don't fit me, but there's a new uniform.
And then there's school supplies.
Look, I'm not stupid.
I know you get money from 'Baby Bonus' for me every month.
That should go to that, so that I CAN have new clothes, and not old school supplies (considering mine are all gone.)
No one else is to support you.
It's your job, and you're not there to support anyone either. (GARY)

My dad, DAD
I wish you'd keep it out of your life.
He's MY dad, and you're not supposed to have ANYTHING to do with him.
And he's not supposed to have ANYTHING to do with you.
The past with him, is that past with him, AND WE'RE KEEPING IT THERE.
He may be there for my recreational stuff,
But it doesn't mean he has to support you for everything.
And his girlfriend and him are together.
I know you're jealous, and that's okay.
But I'm telling you, IT'S NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN.
That won't work as a relationship.
Not even friends.
Since you freaked out, about when he helped you.
Don't talk to him.
And just to mention,when I visit there.
You won't be able to have the number, it's against the restraining order.
Therefore you give me a time to call at, and I'll call you.
Of course using *69
You keep telling me that you know everything about him.
Everything about him and Diane, and everything about them, like where they're moving.
LEAVE IT GO.
Why would they come up to you ALL THE TIME,
If you keep telling me that you tell them you don't want them to tell you this.
Why do they?
And you know what I think? Well, I do.
I think you're lying, I think you're asking them about everything.
I think you're asking them what's going on in his life.
And I think they're telling you.
And I also think you tell me to see my reaction, and then..
You tell me they just say it out of nowhere.
Well you know what I say to that? I do.
HAH!

Ah, sweet ANGER isn't as sweet as I thought.
It's as sweet as a bitter berry.
I honestly think you need help with this.
When you're angry, you either chug a drink, or smoke a joint.
Which makes you even more angry than the begginning.
Not helping, just so that you know.
When you're angry, calm down, take an aspirin or something.
I don't need this in the picture.
(Gary just walked in) Oh great....
I really think you need help with this.
Either medication, or professional help.
I'm being HONEST.

Oh the face of hidious SELF PITY.
I hate it when you talk about how you give pity to yourself.
You always tell everyone how you feel bad for yourself.
People are going through the same thing as you.
Like me for instance, I don't complain and use your mom's death as an excuse.
Look at Aunt Sylvie, she doesn't use that as an excuse and her job is much harder and 24/7.
She doesn't use 'her dad is dying' as an excuse either.
You always mention about how other people smoke weed and drink as well.
Look okay, they don't have a responsibility.
Now we're going into detail.
SPENCER - you claim that that he smokes and he doesn't get s**t at him.
Here's the comparision.
Spencer - He does NOT have a child to raise.
He goes to work EVERY TIME he's supposed to.
You - You DO have a child to raise.
You tell your work your mom's died, your dad's dying, you're too tired.
Look okay, self pitying yourself is stupid.
Pitying in general is stupid.
It makes you seem conceited when you self pity.
As if you only care for yourself.
That's what you're showing everyone around you.

There you have it.
I don't care what you think about this.
I HOPE it wakes you up.
And let you see what you're doing.
You're hurting your family, you're hurting your friends.
You complain about barely having any friends.
YOU'RE PUSHING EVERYONE AWAY FROM YOU WITH YOUR WAYS.
C'mon, you even got UNCLE RICK annoyed with you.
Even though he's the same way,
a couple of my famous last words in here to you.
WAKE UP BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE.


(I hope this got through to you, because if not, it's through to me.)