A friend is someone special to you, someone you knwo you can trust, someone who makes you laugh and never cry. I have a very good friend,her name is Cassandra, she's my eond in my friends list, and whatever she does today july 12,2007 is of her choice...i tried to help...and i cryed as well, but i guess there is nothing i can do or say to help. Why is it when i finally make a good friend...he or she leaves...why is it....why is it...why do people believe that the only way out of their problems is comiting suicide? why do people believe taking their life will solve having a life? these questions i can not understand yetanswer them either. right now it is 4:23 AM and i watched her go to sleep on msn...i literary watched her lay down on the floor, get under her blankets...and fall asleep...i actually miss her already, and im hoping she doesnt go thru with it. There is a different meaning eveytime you say the word love, my meaning for this is friendship, i love her as a friend, and when you love...you never stop loving...no matter what you say or stop saying. I will walways be there...she says that i will be sad for some time then forget about her...but if she goes thru with it...i wish she could se how much i will miss her...i wish he could see how much she actually ment to me...i wish she could hear my cry as soon as i watcher go to sleep. Yes, i'm crying, I'm crying bacause there is nothing i can do...she said so herself...it's still 4:27 AM and she is online...her camera turned off and im thinkng it froze or something...but deep in my heart im hoping by morning she will answer me back...and i will hear the little chime that msn makes when someone talks to you, i swear that that chime will be the best anoying little sound i ever head in my life, i will stay awake for a total of pobly 4 hours...to wait if she waks up and will not sleep until she responds...if she never talk again...and want you all to know that if you have thoughts o suicide on yor mind...you are hurting youself...and others that love you...maybe some people dont care s**t about you...but ehey it's no like your 20 bucks so that everyone can like you...just keep in mind that there are people wich you are in their heads...and get in their shoes...right now i don knwo what to expect...all i can do is wait...all i can do is wait...wait...wait...wait..wait until morning...wait until an answer comes...wait until...until its over...i donot want it over...i do not want it...over...4:32 AM and im still typing...i know im a slow typer but i have many things to say. As i was saying please...if you think of suicide...tink again...suicide will not solve yours or anyone elses problems...it wil make them worse...the only reason tosolve anything it patience and wait...if you just wait a little longer...the answer to everything you cant answer might come. Ok we all know the Romeo and Juliet story...Romeo drinks the poison thinking the love of his life is dead and he kills himself...at that very moment his life leaves his body...Juliet wakes up...and sees him dead in her arms...now what do you think would of hapened if Romeo would of waited just 2 seconds more...just 2 seconds more...he woldof been happy...no more sadness...his love was his! to hold and to live. Thats what i have to say...if you would just wait...wait even a little time..even if its a year or three years or five...just wait...thetime will ome that all answers will be revealed right before your eyes...and that you would notice the thoghts you had...where completly pointles...and that it was not going tosolve anything...I'm sorryfor getting all religious now...and if you dont like it you can just stop reading and go o bed...but Jesus (son of God) was crusifide int he cross...he dies for us...so we wouldnt have to suffer...he dies for you...he died so you didnt have to...he dies so you would be happy...he came to this world to give us happyness and we all betrayed him...but he's alive...and he wants you to live. Everyone has a time...by timei mean a time of death, that time wil be once...and that time you cannot choose youself...it just hapens...but if you tamper with that time and try to take your life...it will only cause damage and pain and hurting. You are free to do whatever you want...you are free to think whatever you think...but i just did my part...by doing my prt in telling you...i did my part...now it's up to you if you want to listen or not. My eyes are red...from teh crying i did...it hurts so much to lose someone...i havnt lost her and i believe i wont lose her...all i have to d is wait...all i have to do is wait...God Bless you all...and please...think...think o what i have said. I finished this at 4:50 AM...this is how much time i dedicated just to say a few simple words...was it so bad?...i higly dout it...please think...just think about it.
It's 5:20 good morning, when i heard the MSN chime go off that someone was tlalking to me, and it hapened to be her...my heart almost stoped...once i talked to her and knew i was going to be able to talk to her again, my heart droped to the ground, she has made me very happy and my trembling stoped, boy do you guys not know how much i love her right about now
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