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Graduation's over. I said good-bye to people I'll probably never see again. People cried. I didn't. Gave people hugs. Promised to see them again. Who knows how many of those promises I'll break.

And now is the summer between high school and college where you start to feel like a bum in your parent's house. But it's the start of independence! Especially since I'm going to Japan with only a friend. No parents. It's a great start, I think, to really start off full force being out on your own. It's a good "heat-shock" to open up and let the knew days and habits in.

It's depressing. Many of them will see each other again. I'll just have to visit them at UMBC a lot. At this point, I'm a little worried about making friends! @_@

I have moved a lot, so I'm no stranger to going to a new place with all new people and trying to make friends. But I haven't had to do it for seven years! HOMG! What if I'm rusty! And then I turn into a creepy hermit! HOMG! I dun want to be alonez! TT____TT

And what if I'm lazy! What if I don't do any of the work and fail everything! And I don't learn anything! What if I'm stupid as hell?! I'ma go die in a ditch, now.

But... I do think I'm going to be ok... It's a big college. And I've changed a lot since my last drastic change. I can speak to people a lot easier. And this is college. Assumedly, people are going to be a lot more mature and less bitchy. It's a good college. I'm sure there won't be a lot of loud horrible people there. Should be good.

But I'm never going to be able to replace the ones I've lost. That stings. Salt in a wound. Lemon juice in the eye. Needles. *shiver*



I wish each and every one of you all the happiness in the world though. It wouldn't be worth feeling happy if my friends were miserable!